– The sun is in the 8th house.
– The chart ruler is in the 8th house.
– The ruler of the sun is in the 8th house.
– The ruler of the 8th house is in the 8th house.
– Pluto in scorpio is in the 1st house.
– Pluto is my final depositor.
Needless to say, what goes on in this house is ultimately what is going to rule and govern me. I have come to love my stellium. Because despite the hardships it can cause, it drives me and pushes me forward very far. Without it, I would not be where I am today, or who I am today.
I’m highly intuitive with people One of the biggest things this house does for me, is it allows me to peel away at the layers of the mind and emotions of myself and others. It’s kick-started by my mars being on the midhaven, but I am keenly self aware. To a fault really. I have had to learn to back off from picking myself apart, breaking everything down, and sifting through everything to explain every possible thing I could think or feel. Human behavior as a whole is very logical to me, and it is extremely rare for me to meet a person who does not make sense to me. Even if I can’t articulate it well, I can get almost anyone.
I have to be careful of what I speak of when I sense something about someone. I get to the core of my own hurts and ailments rather quick. Others don’t appreciate that sort of speed and in the past I have hurt people for showing them things they are not prepared to handle.
A key word for me is “depth”. I seek depth, I dive into the depths, and my drive is to uncover the depths of the world. I am not one to simply skate on the surface of things and ignore the deeper hidden meanings behind something. I am much more interested in what a person doesn’t say, then what they say.
Very little scares me, and I am hard to freak out. I will get dreams that would be perceived as a nightmare by many, but I do not experience it as such. At worst I might be slightly unnerved. I actually enjoy “scary” dreams. My imagination is rather daemonic in a lot of ways. Not evil, but there is a darkness to it that I must balance out. For years I have denied it and ignored it, and it caused problems. In the past year I have learned to embrace it. It’s “changing” me, but I have come to accept it.
I am seldom casual, and I take everything seriously. Even if I say “this is just for fun” to others, in my mind I am putting all focus and energy into things, and taking it as seriously as ever. I have a tendancy to be a very black-white thinker because of this. Again, something I have had to learn to work around.
I have the ability to be highly deceptive, and I am really good at it. Too good really. Why I can be deceptive comes from other areas of my chart, but the skill comes from my 8th house. Further the enjoyment of this emanates from there as well, which further drove me to do it.
The 8th house drives me to constantly self improve. I am constantly working on myself. Constantly refining myself. There is something to improve, better, fix. Sometimes it can get so overwhelming I get lazy and fix things with bandaids. Eventually, it can’t hold together and I will just combust myself. Destroy most of what and who I am, and rebuild myself. Ultimately I am still me, but a tremendous amount of mental rearrangement has occured within.
I may put off a demenaor of being unflappable, tough, and certain. In reality though, I am very very sensistive. I easily feel what others express, and I feel emotion very strongly. It has a huge physical quality to it as well. I can be emotionally overwhelmed easily, and when that happens I have to focus all of my energy on containing this. This can lead to huge energy drains because of how much I demand of myself.
All in all, I embody the 8th house, because it a huge part of whom I am. It’s where I live, and where you have to go to find the true “me”.
