I keep having anger outbursts out of nowhere, mostly politically related (and mostly at my own party tbh) and it has gotten so bad that I have been either ousted and/or gotten into trouble for it. I don’t mean light anger either, I mean absolutely uncontrolled raged and shouting as horrible insults as I possible can, to the point people think I am Borderline and/or schizophrenic.
Aww, I really feel for you. Sometimes when I was in my teens and 20s, I would get to the point that I’d say incoherent, angry things and scare people like that… it didn’t really start to get easier until I hit like 25 or 30 honestly. For me at least, it seemed like the anger issues and feeling out of control got better as I aged and gained weight (I’m 35 now), but yeah, being emotionally sensitive and feeling things deeply while also having your youthful hormones raging is a really bad combination.
Interestingly, the moon can be a significator of the mother in some instances, and in this case you have the moon in your first house. It seems to suggest that your Mom has an influence on your appearance and how others see you. In this case, your Mom taking care of your grooming directly and choosing your clothes would seem to fit the symbolism. It definitely is a little inappropriate for your age, and like she doesn’t quite see you as an adult… like she’s still treating you like her baby in some ways, if that makes sense?
1. Are there any positive coming soon?
I’m not an expert on predictions, but I don’t really see any transits coming up immediately that I would associate with a positive result. Nothing stands out to me as moving things forward in that sense until sometime next year or so.
2. What is the root of my communication and anger issues? I apparently should be a good at communicating but I absolutely suck at it. I was “homeschooled” from 4th to 9th grade but I basically did nothing, but still managed to go back to school in the 10th grade and somehow graduate high school with high grades. I feel several blows to my head throughout my life might not help that. I just feel unable to express myself at all.
Ah, I know what you mean. I was “homeschooled” from 3rd to 7th grade myself, went back to school in 8th grade and graduated high school with high grades. As far as communication, it seems like on an intellectual level, you communicate just fine when you’re in a calm state of mind. You have a Virgo sun in the 10th house, and a Virgo Mercury in the 9th house. That seems to suggest strong communication skills. I’m guessing the main issue is that you struggle with tone, alternating between struggling to make your needs heard, or going too far and seeming unreasonable and demanding. Pluto is conjunct your Ascendant, which already lends itself to obsession and power struggles, and it’s also squaring your Mercury… suggesting that your communication struggles to work effectively with that energy. You also have Mars in Scorpio in the 12th house, which suggests that you aren’t always aware of your anger brewing beneath the surface until it erupts, and even hints at how your anger can lead to you being “exiled” or kicked out of things.
3. What is my purpose you think?
Well, your North Node is actually conjunct your Lilith in Virgo in the 10th house. So Lilith energy may actually be relevant to your purpose or goals in life. Having your NN in the 10th house seems to suggest that you need to seek independence and self-sufficiency, and break a pattern of dependency on your family that has become entrenched. Having the NN in Virgo suggests a need to build a structured, practical life and get organized, and move away from having blurry boundaries and losing perspective on where you end and another person begins.
4. Also should I try to get away from my parents? They have been just as bad as me, heck my mom has hit my dad several times in the past few months and yelled at him in public. Also yell at my dad that he should have been beaten more as a kid by his parents and maybe he would be more normal or something. Though my dad keeps making mistakes and is probably showing some early dementia symptoms. Still not an excuse.
Well, your North Node symbolism seems to support it strongly, especially with Lilith on NN. Not to mention you have a Sagittarius rising, which hints at long-distance journeys. But on a more basic level, it seems to me like you have little to lose if you’re all living in a car anyway, by trying to find shelter. I don’t think they can really hold it against you if you would rather have a roof over your head and take government assistance of some kind if you can get it, rather than keep living in the car with them. They’re objectively falling down on their job as adults.
Let me put it this way… people usually move back in with their parents because they messed up their life and the alternative would be living in the car. In this case, your parents messed up the whole family’s life, you’re all living in a car, and it seems like there’s nowhere left to turn. If anything, if you want them to continue being a part of your life, you might be the one that has to take care of them, rather than being able to rely on them. It doesn’t sound like they can take care of themselves, let alone you. Apologies if that sounded a bit judgmental on my part.
I mean, besides… what are they going to do if you upset them? They can’t exactly kick you out of the house if you’re all living in the car… I wouldn’t call that leverage that compels you to obey them.
Anyways I apologize for this mess, I am not okay right now, and I just feel something horrible is going to happen to me soon.
Aww, don’t worry, it wasn’t too much of a mess for me. I was able to follow it just fine. 
Thanks for the replies so far! Anyways what indicates these power struggles? Is it mostly the Pluto energy?
That’s definitely a big part of it. It’s conjunct your ascendant and squaring Mercury. Mars is also squaring Jupiter, which is the ruler of your ascendant.
I’m American, 27 years old, biologically male, and live in Texas so going by that i should be completely dumb, but each reading chart says I am not and as a kid people told me I’m sharp.
Ah, same here, I’m also male and living in Texas. Anyway, I just want to let you know I appreciate how authentic and vulnerable you’re being here, talking about your mental health, your raw emotions, the way your Mom treats you, etc. I hope things get easier for you, I know it’s not easy to be a sensitive, emotionally vulnerable person, especially not as a guy in Texas.
