When your mind and heart are truly open abundance will flow to you effortlessly and easily.
Question:
Writing to you from Sweden. (I’m sorry about my poor English, and I find it very difficult to explain, but I’m trying, so please bear with me).
I read in your book The Path to Love, about the couple from your childhood, the ones like “Rama and Sita”. The thing is, I think I’m like the ones you described as “having their lover within” (that doesn’t need a partner). I’m in a very real and human relationship right now and I feel like I’m being dishonest or cheating on my fiancé whenever I go to my inner room.
The deepest part of my heart will always belong to that inner being, and that’s where I’m happy, at the same time I love my boyfriend, and a part of me just wants a normal life. This is a big conflict in me, and I’m at the point of leaving him. I recognize this behavior from previous relationships I’ve been in.
Does this mean that I’m destined to forever live alone?? Is there a way of letting these two realities live side by side?
The result of the situation I’m in now is that I don’t go to my inner room, I’ve lost contact with myself and my higher power and I’m walking around feeling emotional pain all the time. I desperately need a change.
I don’t know maybe he’s just not the one for me, because we don’t share the same existential perspective on life. I’ve thought that maybe the problem is that “God” (or whatever) can’t manifest in him, meeting me, that he’s blocked. It’s all so confusing.
Response:
I think that even though your heart has this strong connection to the divine, that you will be much happier sharing your life with a physical partner. Your struggle seems to center around you need to try to make your divine love fit onto your boyfriend, or make your feelings for your boyfriend rise up to the same level as that spiritual feeling inside. It’s okay that they aren’t the same. You don’t have to feel like you are cheating on him, and you don’t need to impose on him the expectation that he isn’t manifesting enough God in his life for you. You can allow these two modes of love to function side by side, the same you do for other relationships of family and friends. You are too fixated on the Rama and Sita story of idealized divine love between a man and a woman. But there are other relationships of divine love in that story, about friends, brothers, parents, that all illustrate the ultimate forms of earthly love. These stories aren’t prescriptions for how we should alter our lives and relationships. Rather, they are descriptions of the fully awakened mind and heart of the enlightened to give a vision of what is possible. Let your feelings for your boyfriend be what they are, and let your inner spiritual connection be what it is.
Love,
Deepak
