Again, I hope you are faring well in these struggles, especially having to have moved back home and to having a child in a situation where grandma might be more or less assistive than you want. As a grandpa myself , I could see the struggle that a grandparent might have, and how that might affect my son as a single parent moving back with my grandchildren. As the Brits sometimes say, “You have to keep a stiff upper lip”.
In the chart above, we are looking two particularly difficult SQUEAKY WHEEL ASPECTS that represent issues that you cannot ignore. These aspects are the Sun opp Saturn, and Mercury opp Saturn.
So lets look at both of them first, and then in my next missive I will show the aspects which could be supportive, if you could see them, but its hard to see them when the squeaky wheel is shouting so loudly.
Sun Opp Saturn: This clearly shows your depression for this period and highlights what is obviously the estrangement and the separation anxiety(I want to leave, I don’t want to leave, I can’t leave, I should leave—al alternating as an often dizzying pace) with living with Grandma(of your child, mother to you). This aspect also specifically highlights unfavorable job changes and loss of position there. You may find that bosses are a source of friction(and in your home also as you mother is the boss there too). Specifically avoid counting on the promises of others for you: they are less likely than normal of following through for you at this time.
You may need to pay special attention to health matters, and so if you are not doing so, keep it in the back of your mind.
Under this influence you will become very conscious of the limitations imposed on you by circumstances
and other people especially, unfortunately your mother and any potential work bosses. Your task is to not let yourself be overwhelmed by them. One effect aspect is a sense of loneliness or inability to communicate with others. You may feel that there is a gulf between you and others that you can’t possibly cross. What you are experiencing is the real gulf that always exists between people.
The problem is that in your present frame of mind, if you aren’t careful, you may let it overwhelm you. There is a point beyond which we cannot know each other or experience each other’s feelings. But there is no need to let that truth drag you down.
You may actually find that you are unable to communicate with people, or that others constantly get in your way and hold you back. It might turn out to be a real conflict between your need for self-expression and your need for relationships. Try to find a balance between your needs and your obligations, for neither can be allowed to win out at the expense of the other.
Be aware that if you ignore your obligations and do only whatever you choose, you will be in great conflict with others, which will prevent you from deriving any real satisfaction from your activities. You have to make compromises. If you are honest in expressing your needs to others and ask that they do the same, you should be able to work it out.
Questions?
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Next, the Mercury opposing Saturn.
