I also have a Moon-Saturn conjunction in my chart, but it’s a bit different. Moon at 24° Capricorn and Saturn at 0° Aquarius. We’re the same age. Having Moon in Capricorn is already a major challenge in many ways, and then it’s conjunct Saturn on top of that.
Honestly, there’s so much to say, but let me express my own experience and advice in summary. I wanted to share a few things I consider important, hoping they might provide you with some insight.
From one perspective, I see it as one of the most important indicators that built my character – that made me who I am. From another perspective, I see it as the source of my greatest pains and trials that alienated me from myself. I’ve always been quite reliable when it comes to responsibilities. I think I matured at a very early age. I inevitably became deprived of love, and this became the greatest pain of my life.
One of the important points I’ve noticed is this, and for me, this is the key point. I feel the responsibility and emotional burden of almost everything around me and in my life, to a greater or lesser extent. Moreover, nothing from the past is forgotten or erased; on the contrary, it deepens and becomes complex. I think this point needs to be understood and resolved. In other words, we need to learn to clearly draw the boundaries of the areas we’re responsible for and not pay mental or emotional attention to things outside of that. Otherwise, we won’t be able to free ourselves from unbearable difficulties, worries, anxieties, and the pains of the past – like carrying worlds on our shoulders.
There’s another interesting and seemingly paradoxical situation I’ve identified in myself that I see as related to this. It will be difficult to express, but I hope I can explain it. Contrary to what’s expected from Moon in Capricorn, I’m extremely compassionate. But my rule-following nature and realism often form the center of my decisions and point of action. However, this doesn’t mean my compassion and mercy are secondary. On the contrary, my compassion and mercy are much more prominent, but I can’t compromise on taking my steps according to rules and my own truths. I suffer greatly in such situations.
Looking at my Moon-Saturn conjunction journey at this age, here’s what I see in summary: I’m covered in wounds everywhere. Wherever you touch, it hurts, aches, throbs. Since this has now become unbearable, I’ve truly isolated myself in many ways. However, people see this as withdrawal or self-sabotage. Because we have a background that’s too complex to explain with a few sentences and a casual conversation.
This topic is very deep and long for me. Of course, the entire chart matters. On the other hand, other potentials can play critical roles. Living and experiencing life doesn’t only mean having pleasure. I’ve learned that there are many delights within pain as well.
