After some later synchronicities related to creative activity in pursuit of romantic connections indicated that magic (occult) might really work, I had already been spooked into shutting down creatively (at least publicly, but also in general).
Mars nearly conjunct Sun in Scorpio might correspond to my holding on to grudges long past anyone else’s remembrance. I don’t know what else in the chart would indicate a long fuse or tolerance before a sudden outburst or severance of ties. (Maybe Venus in Libra? I did manage to become rather diplomatic during my working life, even with some people who had surprising manners.)
In retrospect, I think the long fuse/sudden explosion had something to do with a non-communicative family where it was assumed we would conduct ourselves according to the unspoken template of expected behavior. Or maybe Saturn blocked Mercury. But let’s also allow some room for mundane explanations, whether circumstantial or genetic.
As for sexuality, in my case having Sun and Mars square Uranus in the 8th House (of sex and death among other things) might have had something to do with my turning out to be gay, as well as my deciding early on to be myself despite societal pressures.
As a teen in the late 70s, I was cool with being attracted to other guys — but I did notice that nobody else would have been cool with that, so I learned to live like a spy even within my own family, and did not come out as gay until I had enough money in the bank to move out on my own. Prior to that, I did not come out to them for the sake of self-protection, but when I was prepared to live independently, I wanted them to know because I wanted to be honest with them.
As for Chiron (which indicates the “wounded healer”), somewhere recently I read it might also indicate the wound that never heals. That makes sense as part of the T-formation with Uranus and Sun/Mars.
Plus in my case there’s also Saturn in Capricorn putting a damper on things with a dash of trying to act responsibly.
I didn’t have the same sort of romantic and sexual life-experiences that many or most of my classmates would have had when I was in high school and college (mid to late 70s — and sure, I gather that heterosexuals and heteroromantics can also have rough, embarrassing, and disappointing experiences during those years). On the other hand, I didn’t go out in the first tide of AIDS deaths — so I guess that’s something. Nice consolation prize!
But how about those items on the sevens and the variety/mush of aspects that get triggered whenever something goes around? No comments about that?
New question: Could it be that my Part of Fortune indicates that my luck was always to be found in remaining single or at least in not sharing a house with someone else (I did have a live-in relationship with someone else for about 5.5 years when I was younger, but have been single otherwise)?
P.S. — I wrote this out even while considering the possibility that I might not be able to delete or edit it later (because of forum changes and updates at time of writing) — I’m cool with that. Maybe my take on possible correspondences might help someone else.