if i were to summarize very roughly how i’m feeling right now, it’s like someone who has been having nightmares for a long time, just woke up, and is still trying to come to and understand what happened. strange but that’s genuinely how it feels.
Interesting. In your 2ndary progressed return chart for your next September birthday, the issues of the 12th house are paramount in your life process. Obviously not all of them affect you but I’ve bolded those that might:
AFFLICTIONS IN GENERAL(NOT SPECIFICALLY PHYSICAL), AMBUSHES, ANESTHETICS, LARGE ANIMALS, ASYLUMS(NOT JUST MENTAL HOSPITALS bUT ANYPLACE YOU ESCAPE TO), BLACKMAIL, BONDAGE, BROTHERHOODS(AND SISTERHOODS, LIKE ORDER OF THE EASTERN STAR), REPUTATION OF BROTHERS AND SISTERS, PROPERTY OF BROTHERS AND SISTERS, CHARITY AND CHARITY MOVEMENTS, CHEATING, DEATH OF CHILDREN, ENDING OF PROJECTS THAT WERE LIKE YOUR CHILD(LIKE A SCHOOL YOU STARTED that is CLOSING), CIVIC ORGANIZATIONS, CLINICS, CONSPIRACIES, CONFINEMENT, CRIME, DELUSIONS, DETECTIVES, DETENTION, DISAPPOINTMENTS, ONE’S PERSONAL DOWNFALL, ELEPHANTS, UNEXPRESSED EMOTIONS, ENEMIES THAT YOU DON’T KNOW ABOUT, ESCAPE, EXILES, BEING EXILED IN SOME WAY, FALSEHOODS, FEARS, AILMENTS CAUSED BY FEAR, FICTITIOUS NAMES, FRAUD, GRIEF, HANDICAPS, SERIOUS STATES OF HEALTH, LIFE THREATENING ILLNESSES, THE HIDDEN SIDE OF LIFE, THE UNDERSIDE OF AN ICEBERG, HOAXES/CONSPIRACIES, RETIREMENT FACILITIES, SUFFERING FROM IGNORANCE, IMPERSONATORS, IMPRISONMENT, INTOXICATION, INTRIGUES, LONG JOURNeyS FOR BUSINESS, KARMA, KARMIC RESPONSIBILITIES FOR OTHERS, KIDNAPPING, LIMITATIONS, LONELINESS, LOSSES, SECRET LOVE AFFAIRS, MEDITATION, MISFORTUNE, MONKS, MORGUES, OBSESSION, OCCULT RELIGIONS, OCCULTISM(THE HIDDEN SPIRITUAL LIFE NOT SEEN IN OUTWARD RELIGIONS), THE SYMBOLIC MEANING OF THINGS ESPECIALLY RELIGIOUS ONES, PSYCHIC POWERS, OIL, OIL WELLS, OPIUM, PAIN IN GENERAL, PLAGUES, POISONS, POVERTY, EVERYTHING THAT IS PRIVATE OR THAT Y9U KEEP SECRET AOBUT YOURSELF FROM OTHERS, PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS, PSYCHISM, PSYCHICS, PSYCHIC EXPERIENCES, PUNISHMENTS, RELIGIOUS FANATICISM, RESTRAINT, RESTRICTIONS, RETIREMENT FROM ANY ACTIVITY YOU DID BEFORE, SCANDalS, SCHEMES, THE OCEAN, SAILORS, SEAWEED, ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE SEA, PLACES OF SECLUSION, SECRET SOCIETIES, SELF DESTRUCTION, SUICIDE, SELF INJURY, SLEEP, SUFFERING, SWINDLES, YOUR TOES, TREACHERY, TRIALS, GENERAL UNHAPPINESS, WELFARE, WOES, WORRY.
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This chart also has you with a very high latitude Moon. While this can help you make decisions and focus your life for what you want, it has the side effect of you doing it at the expense of what anyone else might want. Its not a characteristic that you would see in yourself, but those around you, if given an opportunity to respond without reprisal, would readily admit that you tend to treat them as paper clips to be moved to your whim without any input from them. The phrase: “If I want your opinion, I will give it to you”, is one characteristic of a high latitude moon.
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The most significant squeaky wheel aspect is the Sun Sqr Saturn: And you are well aware of this. Its not a general fun time. You probaby feel like one step forward and three steps back. Its something that continues over a period of time with delay and hindrances. Its like having a monkey on one’s back hitting one and not being able to get rid of it.
You get out of it by boosting the aspects, houses, signs, planets that do work, and by learning about how your brain works with the environment in this life. You can do this by working through your chart to learn what you should be doing and how to do it, and with that moderately powerful and very low friction Jupiter you should do this, because if you don’t use your free will to make things better, Jupiter will use its power, the chart will use its line of least resistance to augment what is much less enjoyable. Your choice.
