When I was looking at my natal chart, I looked at it thinking it was bad, in particular, the 8th house with Sun & Saturn being present in there. I looked at this chart again and again until I actually realised what the 8th House meant, transformation.
My experience of my life so far has not been good, in particular with my Father and older Brother. My father who has been a useless, abusive, drunk man and my older brother a rude, arrogant, violent drug addict. Living with them hasn’t been easy. My older brother left home for good in 2023 and my father always enabled him. I made the decision to change my name using numerology to not only better my life but to also get rid of and distance myself from those two. Also, during 2024 and into this year, my car failed, and 4 dogs passed away within 8 months and 7 horses that I love and look after passed away aswell, the pain and hurt I felt was immense. When I suddenly had this urge to look at astrology again, I felt compelled to ask people to help my understand my chart as I didn’t fully understand all of the technicalites. When I looked at the 8th house, it scared me a little bit because I didn’t understand it but also, I knew it represented my dad. When my dad was ill of his own making(He’s still alive) in 2014, I vowed to myself ” I will never treat any future children of my own like the way he treated me and my younger brother!”. I feel now, that I’ve told him what I think of him and what he is, I feel free. I feel that Saturn was making sure that I don’t repeat his sins onto me for me to pass down, I stopped that with me! I will never be like my dad or my older brother. 8th House of transformation, yes, I agree, I am transformed in the right way, I WILL NEVER BE LIKE MY DAD!
(I thank in particular, JUPITERASC, Elena J, RishiRahul and Ecliptique, your insight and advice is so much appreciated)
