i actually dislike drugs, and have some health issues, so i havent exactly done that, but also mercury combusted. so i have still felt like i have enjoyed stuff and ended up going too far with it (also jupiter in the 5th house conjunct saturn), even if it’s in a more mental way.
I ran around some forest in the city tho it’s close to where i live during night, also found a hedgehog next to a monument.
i talk to homeless and random ppl but idk if that’s not aqua sun
something i don’t like to admit is i farted a lot when experimenting with diets and i was trying to hide it from people.
also again health issues but my hair has been greasy and messy for a long time, and i walked barefoot, and didn’t shower at one place i was at bc of sulfur, and then showered less bc of chlorine and stuff i think was irritating my scalp. i stopped using soap on my body not hands, cuz my skin was peeling every time i used it. but i als odidnt use it on my hands if it would peel and itch them what do i need that for. so i have tried to find one that doesn’t do it. dove seems better than most but i have to find another one cz i dont like that ocmpany is unethical. i also tried to find tooth paste that works better and without fluoride but still no luck.
im not very tall. i didnt wnat to become taller bc thers not enough space to hold my body freely in at home and it just would just hurt my spine and things even more. i have felt often a strong desire to just run walk spread my body everywhere but have long struggled to be comfortable doing it, and it;s like I can’t do any of those things without ppl paying attention.
i went on a carnivore, and then raw primal diet to deal with some health issues, including raw meat, the carni diet is known as the lions diet and i relate both of them to leo 8th house of anxiety, grief, cesation, occult (hidden infomration?) death and loss. the meat and butter color ur skin red and yellow/orange bc of nutrients and vitamin in them. the 8th house leo is the empty house of my aquarius T square. then i stopped eating raw meat bc of jaw issues cuz it was tensing my muscles nad making me psychopathic and stuck emotions.
had strong sense of disgust and smth like OCD and was germaphobic still kinda am maybe, but i had to learn to overcome stuff like that bc of pressures like having to go barefoot for nerve pain and feet issues. or having to eat the raw meat bc the cooked one started giving me issues.
venus conjunct PoF in Aries – i didnt care if i get rejected in the sense that i dont emotionally process it maybe, only in my head, unless it’s mroe like the type of rejection that’s like harassment if you know what i mean. just bc someone doesnt like you doesnt mean they should harass you for it, but also just someone making fun of you is not the same as harassment mb idk. like they are just using words, they aren’t really hostile energetically tho mb so i dont care. or maybe i just failed to realise it sometiems? also the spending money impulsively thing, had to work on that. i would get exciting things to say (3rd house) and jokes but would get tired and frustrated if ppl didn’t reciprocate, or made the same jokes and memes again and again, or play the same games, like they refuse to change and grow. disposited by saturn in 5h taurus. also didn’t understand a meme where a guy was whining that a woman who rejected him was blunt but she wasn’t mean she jsut said he’s unattractive. maybe i felt like that was very nice cuz i didnt like ppl beating around the bush, nor understood why. most people are not going to date you if you are a normal person i dont see why there’s anything wrong with that, ofc ur going to get rejected. but bluntness can offend people and they can get emotional and hostile. i can also show affection in a way by challenging the other person or banter, and some aries moon woman was very mad about it tho she has BPD. and honestly i have never met an aries moon who didnt vibe like they were just waiting to explode about some nonsense.
